Marbled Italian
Five Cent Personal Analysis of 2005
Formidable Blearyness
posted by Vinnissimo @ 11:53 AM
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Thursday, January 05, 2006
Formidable Blearyness
5 Comments:
I'm Speaking In Titles All Year!
Let us not forget that Vinnissimo is himself a finely marbled Italian.
Why so bleary, Vinnissimo?
I just bummed that I'm not able to clearly summarize my year right now like you and Kevlar did. You guys are good like that. Bleary, in this context: not all good – not all bad. Marbled at best, and bleary at worst I donno, that’s all I got right now. Maybe next week something will come out of me that is actually a presentable string of thoughts. Thanks for asking.
Actually, I did a very good job of communicating a great deal of not much about my 2005, but I'm thrilled that I gave the impression that I actually conveyed something.
2005 was one of the less wonderful years of my adult life thus far. Nothing grim happened, mind you; it was just a creeping awareness of my spectacular mediocrity in a number of areas that put the hammer down on me this year.
When all is said and done with my life and career (especially with regards to my small and rather inconsistent creative output), it won't be that I missed my chance to shine; rather, it will be that I turned out to not be very shiny. In retrospect, 2005 may have been the year that I came to have a real and adult grasp of my lack of luminescence.
*sigh* and end maudlin post.
1) See my recent post about watching a Wal Mart documentary for a true vision of maudlin.
2) 2005 was the year that I gave my rock drumset away to a friend. I will never be a shiney rock star now, nor just a shiny one.
I was in a hipster eating establishment yesterday. Across the room were two youngsters who I like to think I look like, but they had their laptops open and were discussing the indie record deal they were striking. I thought, I used to rock. On my side of the room was me, wearing pants, and reading a methods section to a dissertation and then a book about the loss of narcissistic omnipotentiality in adulthood.
I am not rock.
I did not get a deal.
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