Me too. Teaching and performing and the wheeling-dealing and rescheduling that go with it are all coming upon me in full force. Ugh! It beats doing nothing though.
Indeed it does. In fact, I'm far better when I'm busy. A better person, more productive, less depressed, etc. However, my anxiety also goes up. The anxiety has its benefits, as I'm prone towards hypervigilance regarding all the shit I have to get done. The downside of anxiety is...well...anxiety. 'cause it feels like shit. So I trade off complacency, laziness, and some depression for some anxiety. I'm better off with one malady than three, so, okay. I'm also not always the best family member or friend during times like this, because I disappear into my work. Haven't worked that out yet. YET.
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Me too. Teaching and performing and the wheeling-dealing and rescheduling that go with it are all coming upon me in full force. Ugh! It beats doing nothing though.
Indeed it does. In fact, I'm far better when I'm busy. A better person, more productive, less depressed, etc. However, my anxiety also goes up. The anxiety has its benefits, as I'm prone towards hypervigilance regarding all the shit I have to get done. The downside of anxiety is...well...anxiety. 'cause it feels like shit. So I trade off complacency, laziness, and some depression for some anxiety. I'm better off with one malady than three, so, okay. I'm also not always the best family member or friend during times like this, because I disappear into my work. Haven't worked that out yet. YET.
So it goes.
well, you sure analysized the fuck out of that one, Teo. Good to know I'm not the only psycho right now.......
Ha!
Dump it all and finish All This Heavenly Glory? Hee hee.
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